I really like starting novels.
I really, really enjoy the feeling of those first few chapters where I am getting to grips with the characters and their world, and how everything clicks together. Even if I end up cutting those first few chapters (which, almost inevitably, I do), that process is really satisfying.
But when I get to around the middle, it can be difficult to keep going. The initial inertia is gone, and the finale is still nowhere in sight… but soldier on we must, because you can’t get to the end without going through the middle.
But the temptation, my friends, the temptation to stop this novel right now and start a new one… oh, it is strong. I had a glimmer of an idea, a foundation for a new story, a group of characters I would love to get to grips with but having to wait until this novel is finished… that’s gonna be tough!
Who knows, I may change novels. At the very least I am going to jot down the seeds that have occurred to me already, so when I come back to this idea it won’t be from scratch.
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Aristotle, Aristotle
I’ll admit I don’t think I’ve ever read Aristotle before. I’m familiar with the name, of course, and I have read a lot of things that reference him and his works, but this is the first time I’m actually reading Aristotle.
Well, an English translation of Aristotle. My ancient Greek is… non-existent. But still! Pretty close. And satisfying in its own way.
It’s a slog, though. A lot of backtracking and No True Scotsman-ing in the piece I’m reading (“Poetics”). Stuff like “Tragedy does this because Comedy doesn’t, and Comedy does that because otherwise it would be a Tragedy”, but somebody had to lay the groundwork, I suppose.
It’s an interesting enough read. I’m about half done, and then I have to read a few pages of Horace (who I have never heard of before) for class ridiculously early on Monday. So trying to get it finished today.
But then nothing else after visiting my parents for a few hours, so I may actually get more writing done! The dream lives on, one day at a time…
Hop everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Halfway!
As I sit here and write, September is half over. On the one hand, that’s really fast (as I believe I pointed out last week!). On the other hand, that means there is still half of the month to go, and that’s not too bad!
My course is going well, considering that this was the first week of class… professor seems engaging and interesting, material isn’t as dry as I was worried it would be. Heavy stuff, and we’re starting with Poetics by Aristotle, so no hand-holding, but that’s okay. The little I’ve read so far seems interesting in an abstract sort of way.
As for the novel, it’s not quite halfway finished, but close. I’m still planning on finishing the first draft by the end of the month, although I’m also going to try and give more time to the editing process this time around. We’ll see if that results in a better finished product, or just a slower one.
Hope everyone other there is staying safe and healthy!
Holy Snakes September is Fast!
September, slow down! I have so much I need and want to accomplish and you’re already almost half over!
Gosh, the days blur by. Work has resumed its usual flow (which is nice, in its own way), and writing continues to consume most of the time I am not at my other job (as it should). My first class is tomorrow at far-too-early-o’clock, but that’s fine… I’m making it harder on myself by choosing to bike since I continue to want more exercise in my life but additionally have no extra time.
Aside: trying to be healthy is expensive and time consuming. I mean, everything these days is, but health in particular is doubly so. Anyway.
I am looking forward to going back to class. It’s been over a year since I’ve had in-person courses, and that’s always been the best part of university. I can’t say I’m super excited about this course (Literary Theory), but who knows, maybe it will be my new favourite English course? Stranger things have happened.
Regardless, with time running down, I should get back to writing. Oh, and hey, if you live in Canada and you haven’t voted yet in the Federal election, you should go do that! My partner and I plan on going today!
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
A Little Bit of Imposter Syndrome
I mean, it probably happens to most of us, right? That feeling that we don’t really… deserve… whatever it is we’re doing?
I don’t feel like I deserve to be a writer. Which, fair ‘nuff, I’m not really yet. I mean, I am a writer, but I’m not paid to be a writer. I actually pay a great deal of money every year to be a writer. It is shockingly expensive to try and do a thing.
But I still feel it, in my chest sometimes. Like… a weight. Something sitting on me and whispering that I’m not good enough. That I’ll never be good enough, and that I should stop trying and maybe just go have a nap that lasts fifty years.
It would certainly be cheaper.
Oh well. I guess the trick is to not let the bastards grind you down, if I may quote Atwood out of context. It would be easier, sure, but I’m not looking for what is easiest. All I want is to be… content, I guess. I don’t need riches, I don’t need fame, I don’t need fancy cars or a big house, I just need a tiny, stable income and time to write.
This shouldn’t be so difficult. And yet.
Anyway. This too shall pass, and I know of no better way of dealing with these kinds of feelings than writing. Put all this… weight, I guess… into my work, and hope that it means something to somebody.
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Brunch
When I was younger and lived in the “big city” (Toronto, Ontario, between about 2006 and 2012), I really loved brunch.
There were a bunch of places my partner and I would go to, sometimes with friends, sometimes just the two of us. One place in particular, just down the street from our first apartment in the city, was a lovely greasy-spoon diner with the most delightful staff. It was small and friendly, just a wonderful little place to get a good bite to eat. There was also a fantastic BBQ restaurant that we found later that did a spectacular chicken-and-waffle brunch once a week. Used to be lined up around the street to get into that place… and then there was a small boutique hotel downtown that did a fabulously expensive but truly extravagant brunch that we went to a few times.
Yesterday we had a couple over for brunch at our home. Our kitchen is still non-functional, so I ordered in food, but it was a nice little afternoon of chatting, eating, and a few games. Made me miss those heady days of a decade ago when we would do that every week (despite definitely not being able to afford it!).
Gah, that reminds me I need to pay for my tuition… so long, money. I hardly knew ye.
Anyway! Brunch. I really like breakfast food, and the opportunity to eat more of it and with people I really like? A rare joy in these troubled times.
Speaking of which, I should get back to my novel. The protagonists are just starting to realize the depth of the trouble their world is in, and how they can work together against it… but one hero may be having second thoughts… gosh, I love my work!
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Jpop and Ethiopian Food
A weird combination, I admit, but I suppose this is one of the advantages of living in modern times. Listening to indie Japanese rock (I’m normally a fan of bubbly pop music, but I’ll admit these are pretty good) while smelling a full order of Ethiopian food with the amazing sour bread they serve with their meals.
Times are hard, no question, and I have a sneaking suspicion that things are going to get much, much worse in the aftermath of the upcoming election, but for now… this is okay. Kinda nice, almost.
I have a monthly update to write for Patreon which will have to wait until tomorrow, but I did make some progress on the novel today. Tweaks, little polishing steps, rather than my usual massive bounding leaps for this novel, but that’s okay!
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
A Little Light Rain
The game store I work at was hit pretty hard by some heavy, heavy rains last night (I imagine nothing compared to what they’re getting down in the Southern States right now). There was some pretty substantial flooding, and as a result they are closed for a few days.
On the one hand, hopefully the insurance will cover the damages (or at least most of the damages), and most of the stock was well above the water line.
On the other hand, it’s nice to have a couple days I can focus on doing my stuff without having to worry about what’s going on at my other job. Especially because it’s kind of the end of summer, and I’m definitely behind in my writing. So a few days I can just pour into that… that’ll be nice.
Also, I got to watch the magnificent Sandra Oh in “The Chair”, a short series about an English Department chair at an American university, and it was lovely and clever and super, super depressing for anyone who is currently enrolled in an English programme… like me! Huzzah.
Oh well. I do still recommend it, although I think it has issues.
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Not Finished Yet
I mean, that’s actually unfair. I’m not finished by a fair margin… I was really hoping to get this novel done in August, but life, as it often does, had other plans.
Hmmm. Ugly sentence. But I’m gonna leave it! That’s my prerogative as a writer! To leave ugly sentences here such that there are none in my novels.
That’s the way it works, right? Cosmic balance and all that?
Anyway. Today I’m going to try and push through the speed bump I’ve hit for this chapter and just get more words on the page. I can fix most problems in editing, but only if I actually write the silly thing. So my goal today is get to the halfway point of my first draft (usually around 35-40k words), and worry about making it pretty later. For now, just words.
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
A Little Competition
I play a lot of games. Tabletop games, that is, although I have played a fair number of digital games in the past. But today I went and played a tournament game (Star Wars Legion, in case anyone is curious), and did mediocre.
Thoroughly middle-of-the-pack. Decidedly average. It was nice to be at a tournament again (12 players total), but I had forgotten how exhausting it is to be out in public socially.
But I had fun! It’s a silly game, hard to take super serious, and it was a small, friendly event that nobody was taking super serious, so it was quite nice. A little change of pace, as it were, and definitely a nice change from having to work at the game store on a Saturday… although, ironically, I was at a different game store on my day off. C’est dommage.
That’s it for now! Back to the novel!
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Slowing the Pace?
I have managed to finish my English course for the summer, and now have a glorious two weeks before I return to classes.
Granted, I’m still working full-time and writing every moment I can, but at least I don’t have school on top of those!
However, some of the feedback I’ve received recently suggests that maybe I should slow the frantic pace of my book releases a bit. They’ve made some rather compelling arguments. I’m going to think on it while I continue to plug away at the current novel (the cyberpunk heist story I’m working on)… it’s about 10K words done, which is significantly less than I wanted but, as we all know, 2021 hasn’t been a great year for anything and especially rough for creative projects.
But, not to fear, there will still be at least one more novel before the end of the year, and maybe I’ll push this one through at my current pace and then spend more time and energy on the next one… we’ll see! We’ll see.
Either way, a big thank you to everyone for your continued support, and I’m still going to be producing as much quality content as I can… but maybe a little less of it at a higher quality? I dunno! We’ll see! Exciting times!
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Good Feedback
About a week back, a very thoughtful reader sent me an email with some incredibly insightful feedback. They had just finished Caitlyn Morcos, Interplanetary Marshal Service, and wanted to know if I was open to hearing about their experience with the book.
Yes. A thousand times yes.
So they sent along a list of stuff they liked, and stuff they thought needed work for my future projects. It was extremely kind, and I really appreciate them taking the time to give me their thoughts. A lot of writing is just kinda throwing stories out into the world and hoping that people enjoy them, so getting thoughtful, intelligent feedback is worth more than gold.
One of the big things they mentioned that I want to touch on briefly is that they’re not exactly sure who my intended audience is. A lot of Morcos is almost YA in tone: jokes, blushing deputies, kidding around. But then a fair amount of it is very dark, tackling serious issues and there is a significant amount of death and pain.
The short answer is ‘I don’t really know’. I write the kind of stories that I love to read and watch… witty banter, fast action, but not super serious or with “a message” baked in. Not that there is nothing wrong with super serious sci-fi! Some of it is great! But it’s not the kind of sci-fi that I love. So who is Morcos for? People who are like me, I guess, who find real-life stressful and depressing and are looking for an escape full of heroes that get to be heroic and villains that may be evil, but still have a moral compass they think is good.
Anyway, I really appreciated the feedback, and a lot of it is going to change some of what I do. One of the harder ones to work with was his suggestion to slow down my writing process… to focus on fewer books a year and pour more time and energy into them. It’s good advice, but it directly contradicts other advice I’ve received which basically boils down to “write as many books as you can at good quality so people know you produce consistent work.” I guess there’s a balance point in there somewhere, and I just have to find it.
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Compare and Contrast
Over the last few years (I’ve now been a part-time English student for three years, more-or-less), I have had to “Compare and contrast” an awful lot. Compare these two books. Contrast these two authors. Compare and contrast these two poems.
So much comparing! So much contrasting!
My final exam for this course is, unsurprisingly, an essay about comparing and contrasting. And that’s fine, I don’t mind doing that one more time (this semester). My least favourite part of essays are always the Works Cited requirements. Having to find a particular passage or quotation from a book I read once is a slog… especially if I need multiple relevant quotations. And I don’t think there’s a good way to work around that… if you find the quotations first, you have to adjust the content of the essay to the quotes, but if you write the essay first it can be impossible to find appropriate quotations (especially if you, like me, don’t precisely remember what you’ve read, just approximations!). Oh well. My essays tend to be graded very favourably, so I can’t complain!
I should get to it. It’s a slog, but it’s an important one, and it needs time to be edited and adjusted as I write.
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Home Alone!
Well, here’s something that hasn’t happened in a VERY long time. I have the whole house to myself!
My partner works as a book keeper (accounting), and took about a month off to handle some stressful home/work/life changes that have been going on. Today is their first day going back to their office (in as safe a manner as possible, and with the blessings of the boss to figure out a good “Work from Home” vs “Work from the Office” division that works for her). But that means I have all day to myself! Glee!
I mean, I love my partner, and I love spending time with her. But it is way, way easier to get writing done when I’m not being gently pulled in different directions for various tasks. And I am going to get so much writing done today!
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Missed Wednesday!
Hey, none of us are perfect… I missed my update on Wednesday! In my defence, I had a huge assignment due for my course (the last thing due aside from the final essay, due in 10 days… I will probably start that tomorrow).
Thankfully, not much happened this week, so you haven’t really missed anything. And I did well on that assignment (technically, I did perfect, but I don’t think I quite deserve that grade… but I’m not going to complain).
Oh, and I sold 10 paperbacks in one day this week (may have been Wednesday, actually). Which is a record! It doesn’t quite double the number of paperbacks I’ve ever sold, but it comes awfully close…
I look forward to the day that a day where I sold 10 copies of a book isn’t even worth noting. But I am not there yet, and it is really nice to see. If only I could get those kind of numbers consistently… ah well! One of these days!
Alright, I’m going to get back to making dinner, and I’ll be back in a few days with an update on Sunday or Monday!
I hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Just a Final Exam Away...
I have to remind myself sometimes that I have willingly chosen to study for an English degree. That all the cost, time, effort, and energy is something I went out of my way to pursue in the hopes of…
Something. In the hopes of something. Maybe a better future? At the very least better books. But it’s hard to remember that sometimes, since it absorbs all of my “free time” like a giant, expensive, joyless blackhole.
Now, I will say that the “joyless” part is mostly because of the pandemic. I am very, very bad at online learning, and losing the ability to interact with classmates and professors has been hard. Hopefully things will be better in September (spoiler: probably not), but yeah, switching to an online mode of education has not been great.
But I finished my last test and assignment for my summer course today (yay!), which means I just have the exam to write (boo), and then I’m done for the rest of the month (or, the three weeks between now and when classes start up again). I intend to get much personal writing done in that time, fingers crossed.
Right! I should get back to just that writing… July was not a good month for my word count (and neither was June, as memory serves), so I have to make the most of the time I have available to me.
Hope everyone is staying safe and healthy!
Advertising Budgets
I had to cut my ad budget again. One of my ads is very successful, basically popping up every time it has the opportunity to. And it is landing me sales, but it costs me more-or-less $5 for every $1 I sell. In the grand scheme of things it’s not a tonne of money, but it adds up, and over a month it can be a bit shocking.
It’s too bad, though. Because, if anything, it has given me a very realistic “ads = sales” model that, had I more money, would result in more people reading my books… and, hopefully, if they read one, they may go on to read another one (or two!).
Now, granted, they would have to read my entire catalog at this point to recoup the losses from advertising, and even then it would barely break even, but at least the sting would be less.
But, t’is not to be. The ad will continue to run at a much more humble rate because I can’t afford otherwise. But hopefully people will still see my books, still be interested enough to pick up one or two of them. That’s the dream, after all.
Anyway! I get to finish up the last assignment for my English summer course today, and then start prepping for the last test and the final exam. Not exactly “fun”, but I am doing well overall and it will be nice to put another mandatory course in the rear view mirror on my way to my degree.
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Where Did July Go?
Holy crap, where did the month go!?
I mean, I get that I was busy, but yikes, that entire month just vapourized and I’m not exactly sure how.
Upside, the novel is coming along really nicely, and I’ve almost finished another summer course for my degree. Exam is in two weeks, and I’m not worried about it (I don’t think I’ll do particularly great, but I think I’ll be okay). So at least I’ve spent some of the time productively.
Downside, the novel isn’t done by a long shot. And I really want it done before the end of summer if I can at all manage it.
Oh well. Time stops for nobody. And, hey, I get to see my parents for the first time since February 2020, so that’s something! Vaccines are wonderful, and absolutely everyone who can get one should get one.
Right! A few hours of work, and then off for an early dinner.
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!
Space Clown Show
Well, several billionaires have now been to space. Woo. Hurray. Yippee.
I know, I know, a lot of people are happy about the potential privatization of space, since it will theoretically make space travel accessible to more people. And those people aren’t wrong… it will come at enormous cost in human life and waste, but yes, it will be available faster than if our current governments continue to treat space as an expensive novelty.
Of course, if the governments did bother to fund space travel to the extent that they should (or could, with minimal impact on bloated military budgets), we could do it all safer, faster, and with far broader application. But that won’t happen because people are scared of government waste and don’t care about the abject cruelty of private companies that can afford to fund this stuff.
I write about futures where humanity has reached the stars, either locally (like Tintian, in which all humanity is still restricted to the solar system), or galactically to various degrees. But in all cases it’s always governments that initially launched people towards the stars, either as explorers, colonists, or soldiers. The idea of a private company doing that… frankly… is a little terrifying.
But, hey, this is the dystopian hellscape we live in right now, and all things considered it could theoretically be worse. So I guess there is that.
As a final thought, my favourite comment about the space travel by the insultingly-rich was “The Bezos space journey started flawlessly, but tragedy struck two hours later when he returned to Earth safely.”
Stay safe and healthy out there, everyone.
Blargh. Essays.
I don’t really like writing essays. I don’t think I’m a “great thinker” who, generations from now, anyone will feel obliged to revisit all the things I wrote to glean additional meanings from. I write them, I usually struggle at the start and end up with something half-decent by the end, but that’s about it.
I get the impression that the essay format was once far more important, and perhaps it still is in the literary academic world that I have almost no connection to (despite my current English studies). I don’t want to make waves: I just want to make a humble living by my writing. I don’t need to have revolutionary thoughts or opinions or a perspective on the work of others… I just want to tell a good story that people can enjoy and, hopefully, that gives them a little happiness and maybe a touch of hope. I really try to focus on optimistic writing, which can be a struggle because I am not always much of an optimist myself, but I try.
I think it’s less about writing what you know, and more about writing the kind of work that I want to read. And I do want to read lots of optimistic, fun, playful works… and, thankfully, the modern sci-fi market seems to have lots of options for that.
Anyway. I gotta get this essay finished so I can get back to the important work of writing my novel!
Hope everyone out there is staying safe and healthy!